Tomorrow..

Decided to make this my signature song..

A song that I would sing to myself all the time..

No matter what happens hope shall not die..

A song that I would sing for you ..

When hope doesn't come knocking your door..

*TOMORROW - Annie*

The sun'll come out 

Tomorrow

Bet your bottom dollar 

That tomorrow 

There'll be sun! 

Just thinkin' about

Tomorrow 

Clears away the cobwebs,

And the sorrow 

'Til there's none! 

When I'm stuck with a day 

That's gray, 

And lonely, 

I just stick out my chin 

And Grin, 

And Say, 

Oh! 

The sun'll come out

Tomorrow 

So ya gotta hang on 

'Til tomorrow 

Come what may 

Tomorrow! Tomorrow!

I love ya Tomorrow! 

You're always

A day

Away! 

I Am Not Earth..

I AM NOT EARTH..
At least not the one you should look down at..
Or even the one you should step over on..

You can be the moon or stars..
As high as you can reach..
As bright as you can wish..
But please..
PLEASE DO NOT JUDGE ME..
From your own perspective..
Cause we are not under the same blue sky..
With mine has rainbow and sunshine..

You know I will touch the sky..

Through sweat and time..

With a pace of mine..

A Reminder from Me to Myself..

I shall.........I shall........

NO!! I must!! I must!!

Always remember what I wish to realize in life..

Then Run for it!! Run for it!!

Do not get tempted by the fancies that would blind the eyes and mind..

Or tricked into the candy traps that have been set by the evil witches of

HALLUCINATION..

They will

NOT BRING ME ANYWHERE..

Leave all of them behind to survive..

Live with Languages..

"YOU LIVE A NEW LIFE FOR EVERY NEW LANGUAGE YOU 
  SPEAK..
  IF YOU KNOW ONLY ONE LANGUAGE..
  YOU LIVE ONLY ONCE.."

A saying which I cannot agree more..
Like me, I was in Chinese education for my whole life until three years ago..
With only an hour a day of limited exposure back then..
English was never my playground..
You shall not be surprised that time if I couldn't even form a proper sentence without struggling for words and grammar..

But somehow somewhere fate found me..
I picked up my English during these three years..
Now I have been living with it since then..
It gave me a chance to live as a different person..
And opened up a whole new world for me when I slowly mastering it..

I came to understand that when a new language is learnt..
The language itself is not alone..
It comes along with its culture and history..
Followed by its native speakers' wisdom, behaviour and attitude towards life that have been accumulated over the years..
Without I realizing it, I adapted these qualities into my personality..
which made me fitted to be like everyone else in the community..
Enjoying things that English speakers would enjoy
which I probably would not learn to appreciate if it were not because of the language..

In fact, being able to switch freely between both languages..

I am extremely grateful and lucky to have witnessed 

the beauty of languages that lies in between thousands years of human civilization..

Telling their hidden stories through ancient symbols..

Lost..

I think..
I AM ACTUALLY PART OF YOU..
Especially when it comes to music..
Those songs that I keep closed to my heart today..
I picked them up all from you..
Slowly I give up telling others about our story..
I do not want the world to see me..
Cause I do not think that they understand..



I lost myself somewhere long ago when I fell in love with you..
BUT I HAVE NO REGRETS FOR BEING SO..

If I Were To Be Someone Else..

I always have this illusion that

I were elsewhere playing someone else's character..

There are times which I wish to be an artist

drawing on a Gondola in Venice..

There are times which I see myself

being a hero serving next to one of the Great Emperors in Chinese Dynasty..

Well I even wish to be the Queen dancing for Ramses II..

Or a dreams seeker wandering in the center of New York City..

I fantasize to be someone else other than just me over here..

Is it a sign showing that I am not satisfied with my own life??

Here it goes again..

Vicinity changing in front of my eyes..

I am now a pirate sailing across the seven oceans..

Searching for the legendary treasure trove..

The ship of imagination brought me across the world..

I would love to be extraordinary..

Yet if I were to be someone else..

Do I have the courage to go on my own adventure??

Those songs..

Those songs have come back..
Even before I realized it..
They have penetrated into my heart..
Poisoned my mind..
I couldn't resist their call..
I couldn't even move but being carried away..

Music is my drug..
I get stoned in those soul-touching songs..
High we go beyond the stars..
Far away from reality and up to their world..
A place where I find my lost memories of the past..
Touch my indescribable feeling of the present..
And see my underlaying images of the future..

Some songs are emotions..
They tell my story through notes..
Walked me through my ups and downs..

Over the years I thought they have left me..
Left me with some new songs in my new life..
And today they came back..
Just for me to realize that I'm still the same old me..
When I first met them..

Love At First Sight..

Do you believe love at first sight??

Just like some songs..
Once listened..
Fall in love forever..

Deep in my own imaginative world..
Far across the rough sea of emotion..
There's a place where all the fantasies come true..
Made up by thousands and millions of beautiful stories..
Which I call dreams..

I long for a LOVE like this..
A love that is so intense it could shatter the earth..
A love that is so beautiful it blossoms colourful flowers during winter..
A love that is enough for us to hold each others' hands until the end of time..
Swear to the sky that our love will last until the dying day..

COME WHAT MAY..

I am still an AIESECer lah~~

AIESEC

A word that may mean nothing to you..

But if you are following me..

It means a lot to us..

It is a name that connects the world..

A platform for us to grow to a better person..

An experience that does wonders in our life..

I am glad to be part of the world's largest youth-run organisation..

I am an AIESECer lah~~
We are AIESECers lah~~

AND

We are so proud to be one..

We started our AIESEC journey one year ago..

From inactive to active..

And now we are loving it..

Today, we call ourselves AIESECaholics..

Every year..

 the organisation creates impacts

in thousands of youth all around the world.. 

Every day..

Somewhere on the earth..

Someone is living a life-changing experience..

Stumbling in the organisation..

And meeting people from all over the world..

It inspires me every single day..

After one year..

I would love to tell the world..

YES!!

I am still an AIESECer lah~~

We are still AIESECers lah~~

Thank you for giving me a chance..

For me, for us to develop..

To who I am, we are today..

Have You Ever Seen The Rain..

I love rainy days..
Despite of the inconvenience caused..
It is a gift granted to the land of beings..

The holy water washes away the aggressiveness on everyone's face..
People slow down their pace..
We can hear nothing but only the pitter patter of raindrops..
Suddenly..
The world becomes so quiet and peaceful..
Even crimes hide in the house..

Rain water bleaches the background into icy grey..
Gloomy and lifeless..
Once in a while the world becomes our drawing paper..
Everyone is an artist..
We paint the street with various colour of umbrellas..
Blue, Yellow, Pink, Red, Purple, Green, Orange..

People cuddle to keep each other warmed..
And a glass of hot chocolate perfects the day..
Rainy days are my favourite days..

Have you ever seen the rain??

The World is Safe to Explore..

Once again..
The world proves to me that it is a safe place for me to explore..

10.15AM
Started a day with the worst thing that could have happened
especially when there were some serious work needed to be done..
I overslept!!
2 hours behind my schedule..
I stumbled over the mess in my room
to get myself and everything else ready..
Having less fear than my first attempt on trying out new route..
I was actually a little bit thrilled
by the adventurous feeling of performing a journey in uncertainties..
Put on my sport shoes and my backpack..
I reassured myself with a single belief..
"The world is a safe place for me to explore"..

11.00AM
The sky was overcast..
My heart was in fits and starts..
As if there were clouds skimming over it..
Causing it to be in a sudden bright and a sudden dark the next second..
This time I had nobody to guide me..
But simply relied on a direction
provided by a telecommuter from Rapid KL..
I was taking risk..

11.50AM
Central Market's bus station was loaded with a lot of buses..
I had to search one by one until I got B115 in sight..
While boarding the bus..
I was greeted by an Indian bus driver with a polite smile..
We began quite a pleasant conversation
as I tried to get a reaffirmation from him
to make sure that I didn't eventually get on the wrong bus..
From food to hometown we were talking about throughout the bus ride..
After all it was just two of us
and another guy who was rushing for prayers in the whole bus..
Building up a friendly relationship with the bus driver..
I am pretty sure that he will drop me right at the place I needed to be..

12.25PM
Like what I have expected..
I got down of the bus right in front of the Inland Revenue building..
Then only I realized I was too late!!
It's prayer break!!
With little hope that the department might still be operating..
I knew I was wrong when I came face to face with
the staff who were all standing in front of me once the lift door opened..
Showing them an embarrassing smile
I scolded myself for screwing up the day..
Another two and a half hours of waiting
could probably drain me upside down..
May be my face looked pity enough that moment..
Out of the blue..
A Chinese lady volunteered herself to finish my application before lunch..
Mission accomplished again!!

12.40PM
Knowing that it's almost impossible to catch a bus during prayer's hours..
I went hunting for food just to kill the time..
There's this huge food corner right in front of Inland Revenue..
Hustle and bustle at lunch hour..
Suddenly I felt belittled in such a big crowd..
I am just another Nobody for the world..

1.30PM
My stomach was filled with food..
However it's still too long for the next bus to reach..
Having no choice..
I could only hope that by miracle a bus would turn up..
Then there were this two Malay girls..
Out of boredom I started chatting with them
and came to realize that we had the same destination..
Agreed to take a cab and split the fare..
we were soon on a taxi to Central Market..
Consider myself lucky enough for getting
2 other people to share the fare with me..
Something better happened..
They refused to take my share even though I insisted to pay..
I couldn't believe my luck..
I just got a free ride out of nowhere..

2.00PM
With a heart full of appreciation to the creator
for sending angels around me when I only have myself to rely on..
For the second time I concluded that
the world is safe for me to explore..
And this time I am more convinced..

Post Script:
A million of "Thank You" to those strangers I met..
Even though we do not know each other
but your existence at that particular moment had enriched my life..

Peace and fulfilment of humankind's potential..=)

Left and Right..

Left                                                       Right

Left                                             Right

Left                                   Right

Eyeballs' rolling

Clock's ticking

Head's moving

MY HEART IS PONDERING

Dance!!

Do you hear the music??Do you hear the sound??
Do you have the basic??To dance me around??

I love dancing..
That's most probably the reason I love party too..
Being an Asian..
We often tightened down by a lot of social norms..
That restrain us from doing anything we really like..
We do not express ourselves openly in front of others..
Therefore dancing in public is never our culture..
It's too dangerous to expose who we are..
As body language would be the most direct way to project one's true-self..
We are too afraid to let the world come into our heart..

Today..YES today!!
It's time for us to throw away all the worries..
Free yourself and tell the stories..
Open your heart to the world..
Dance like a diva as if there were nobody watching..
Again..

Do you hear the music??Do you hear the sound??
Do you have the basic??To dance me around??

The Cliff..

At times I hold back when I try to give..
Even I know I love so much to have..
Understanding myself best who I really am..
The more I love the more I dare not to pour my heart out..
I treasure everyone I like/love that happened to be in my life..
They cherish my journey in every way possible..
Being easily-attached to people..
Sometimes I just wish they would never leave..
But life does not work this way..
We all move on whether we like it or not..

Hold your horse before you crash down the cliff..

Wonderful Arrangement of Life..

You would never know what life has in store for you..
Sometimes it just surprised me when I least expected it..
A lot of times I was struck amazed by it's wonderful arrangement..
Being very conscious about self-safety..
I had never traveled a long distance alone
to a place of unknown..
If I were given a choice..
The risk would definitely not be taken..
Yet sometimes situation does not allow us
to do only what we want..

So that day due to my responsibility as an ICXer in AIESEC..
I left with no choice but to make my first so called adventure
to Putrajaya by public transport..
Going was not a problem as
I had a companion to lead our way..
The inner struggle started when I had to come back by myself..
Already being drained out by the long-waiting process in immigration department..
The unfamiliar faces that surrounded only add on my insecurity..

Two and a half hours of delay on my preset schedule was slowly eating up my patience..
Finally I got the immigration approval letter in my hands at 4.35PM ..
Mission accomplished at last!!
It's time to head back to Kuala Lumpur..
The sky was relatively dark that moment..
Just like my mood this late afternoon..It was my luck when I realized that
I missed the train back to town in a 10-step distance..The train went off in front of my eyes..
"Oh damn!!"
Knowing the fact that I have to drag my journey
to another half an hour until the next train comes..
Despair hit me hard..
Until a guy who also missed a train like I did turned and asked..
"Hey!! Are you an AIESECer too??"
Giving him a frown my answer was "Yes"..

Totally out of random..I found out that he was a former AIESECer from UKM
who we share a lot of common friends..and I was recognized simply because I had an AIESEC shirt on..
Two strangers linked by a single name started talking..
Half an hour of sharing lighten
the torturing of expecting the next train..
Time flies without we even realized it..
So..
I bumped into a stranger that later on became my friend..
Just when I thought I was going to go through
the ups and downs of the journey all by myself..
The unexpected meet amazed me and it created a big impact in me..
Once I was told to believe that the world is safe for me to explore..
But I have never trusted it..
Now..
I am starting to love the randomness in my life..
Life has more to be explored..

The Red Light..

Before this evening..

I used to think that..
The term "Red Light" was just another connotation..

Until I was shown to the darkest side of our world..

There at this sleazy corner in a squalid lane..

I saw Devil's true colour..

Red light was glowing from ajar doors..

Beasties' eyes were staring greedily through the slit..

In the world of red..

Pimps brothels prostitutes..

Love is lust..

They shed their tears and blood..

Betrayed their soul to struggle for a living..

RED..

A colour of sin..

Burning Fire..

I would say..
LOVE is like a burning fire..
Ignited by the drive of passion..
A heat that keeps the lovers' heart warmed..
A spark that kindles the dying spirits..

LOVE is like a burning fire..
It turns uncontrollable and burns on lovers' happiness..
A conflagration that cremates lovers' soul into ashes..
Hurts every inch of their skin and bone..

Stand there and watch me burn..

*LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE - Rihanna ft. Eminem*

A Reverie of Romance..

Waiting patiently but eagerly..

For a chance..

To the land I dream to be every day and night..

I yearn to be hugged by the cultural arms of Iberian Peninsula..

Touched by the tender breeze from Mediterranean Sea..

And indulge in the piquant street of soft-spoken Spanish in the evening..

Fill my lungs with the aromatic smell of Espresso..

Where I will find myself tipsy staring at the beautiful neon lights of the city..

My heart ponders seeing couples kissing lovingly in a dim corner..

Here I meet his soul reaching eyes..

Kiss a stranger under the romantic moon..

I hear " Bésame Mucho " whispered..

Tipsy oh tipsy I am..

Love So Near..

Love is so near..
So near that she can even breath it..
Slowly filling her every sense..
Yet..
She hesitates in front of the heart that beeps only for her..
Stretching out for love involves too much of a risk..
It kills her apparently..

At this high time of her life..
She has no choice but to calculate love the way it shouldn't be..
Freedom is priceless..
She longs to soar high in the sky..
reaches the stars..

Until the day she meets her soul mate..
In this enchanted sky..

One Year After..

One year after..
All I could remember about you is the sweet time we used to spend together..
Resentment that once polluted my heart had gone with time..
Only the laughter remains..
It's the reason I could probably smile to myself even after a few more years..
Yes I will remember you..
Not the way you left but the way you once lived in my heart..
One year..
I wish you well..
One day..
May be one year after..
We will see each other smiling across the crowd..

Raining Night..

Creative Writing 2nd Attempt..

1 Night
2 Everybody sleeping
3 Under the roof
4 A little girl smiling
5 She hears Rain God singing

1 Sky

2 Scudding clouds

3 Rain God saw

4 A little girl smiling

5 Love at the first sight

2  Never better

4  Love in the air

6  One on land one on sky

8   He touches her body with his gender tears

10 Smiling she dances the whole night with his love showering

Melody..

Do you hear the melody in my heart??
A melody which has never stopped playing..
A tune that I always hum to myself..
It is composed by the soul of memories.. 
The recollections of my stories that have never been told in words..
They flow with the music notes..
Nobody understands..
Someday..
I will sing it out..
As soft as a sweet lullaby..
Listen carefully and give some time..
I believe one day you would understand..
There the tune continues..

Fall Into..

As we are growing up..

It's getting harder and harder to really fall in love..

Is it because we have already known ourselves better just to find out that the one we are waiting for has yet to come??

Or we understand that love doesn't come alone but with pain and responsibility??

Is it because we become more cautious than last time to protect ourselves from being hurt once again??

Or we are tired of creating hopes and having them diminished by time??

Is it because we have heard enough stories to believe that fairytale does not exist at all??

Or we tend to calculate too much until it holds us back from finding love??

When will be the next time..
We can follow our heart wholly instead of our mind..

Break away from all those shackles..

And fall in love madly with someone..

After all love was never chose into but fell into..=)

If We Ever Meet Again..

Sometimes I'll think..

May be??

Just may be..

If we ever meet again..

I'll have so much more to say..

Again may be??

Just may be..

I'll never be the same..

Yeah may be??

Just may be..

We can make a better ending..

*IF WE EVER MEET AGAIN - Katy Perry ft. Timbaland*

Secret Yearning..

As cool as i might look like..

As tough as i might sound like..

As choosy as i am always..

Again..

I am just another ordinary girl..

Who secretly yearn for..

Someone who loves me for who I am..

Someone who is ready to be there for me..

Someone who I feel extremely comfortable with..

Someone who let me lean on his chest or arms..

Someone who keeps me preciously in his heart..

Someone as simple as this..=)

Someone..

There is always someone..

He or she is not your lover..

Not even your close friend..

They are just another normal friend to you..

You guys barely talk..

The thought of asking them out have never came across your mind..

But when you accidently bumped into them..

You thanked God for doing so..

You never needed them..

But you missed them quite a lot..

Especially on the one and only great moment you guys had together..

When you do not see them around..

You feel something is missing..

You just happened to like that person so much..

Without any reason..

You simply feel comfortable and happy to have them next to you..

You enjoy their company more than everything..

In a way..

They are not someone that you have ever chosen..

But at the same time.

They are someone that you do not want to lose..

Someone out there..=)

Such Is Life..

Such is life..

I always feel this way..

The person i like never likes me back..

But the person i have never thought of would always turn out to be the one who likes me most..

Apparently God is playing a fool with me..

Miki In Her Wonderland..

Finally after 8 months..
I have done wallowing in my muddy corner..

NO MORE melancholic love..
I came to realise that my life has much more to take care of..
Than hanging on to a faded relationship..
It's time to wash my feet and MOVE ON..

Surprisingly..
The jungle outside my little pond wasn't as scary as it seems..
Every step i take it's a fresh start..
I'm engrossed in this enchanted jungle..

Suddenly i feel like "Alice"..
Creating adventures in the Wonderland..
Seeking for my real destiny..

Yes..
I'm a freeman now..
Just like what they sang in "Boulevard of Broken Dreams"..
My shadow is the only one that walks beside me..
My shallow heart is the only thing that is beating..
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me..
Till then I walk alone..
=)

The Very First Attempt On Creative Writing..

With the passion of trying out everything i could..

In this three years of university life..

I have grabbed an opportunity to be in the class of..

Creative Writing Workshop..

Without much explanation from me..

What Creative Writing is about..

Move your fingers and..

Google it if you are interested to know more..

At the very first lesson..

Immediately..

We have to make up a few stories..

By using only nine or fifteen words..

Based on our creativity and imagination..

Here's the outcome..

Of my cranky tiny brain..

ENJOY..

9 words stories:

1 Moon

2 Above shining

3 Under the trees

2 Shadow changing

1 Lycanthropy

1 Raining

2 Wind blowing

3 Umbrella is missing

2 Stuck outside

1 Wet

1 Turn

2 On lights

3 Cockroaches passed by

2 And say

1 Hi!

15 words stories:

5 Pretending he was the superman

4 Flying in the sky

3 Jump off from

2 The table

1 Ambulance!

5 Books books and more books

4 Study study and study

3 What is life?

2 Asked a

1 Student

5 Three main races living together

4 In two parts, both

3 Peninsular and Borneo

2 We're One

1 Malaysia

5 Mirror mirror on the wall

4 Who is the fairest

3 Of them all

2 Me? Stop

1 Dreaming

5 An old woman of seventy

4 Abandoned by her kids

3 Left alone with

2 An old

1 Dog