Estoy Enamorada..

Exactly two months ago..

I would not have thought that I could be so in love again..

Until the day..
 He took my hands close to his heart..

Embraced me unconditionally into part of his life..

Oh Mi Amor..
Just when I thought wryly a broken heart could never be mended..

You proved me wrong with a simple smile..

That melted my flaky heart and moulded it back to the way it was..

Love showed its magic..
Even I could hardly notice those slits that once caused horror to be beheld..

You made me believe that true love does exist 

As long as you trusted your heart to the right person..

Thank you for finding me along the way..
After years of losing my way back into love..

You saved me from crying like a lost puppy in the endless darkness..

Oh Mi Amor..

Being with you has taught me to appreciate life a little bit more..

As it is never too hard knowing that you are going to walk me down the road..

你不知道的事..

爱情..

有时候也是一种心情..

Limericks..

1

Using mice as bog brushes is not nice..

Though I admit I've done it once or twice..

Many might dislike..

But great minds think alike..

C'mon be a genius and let's do it thrice..

2

My kind of town is more like a city..

It inspires me to pen a little dity..

Traffic jam, go away..

Come another day..

It's valentines, need to pick up my beauty..

Home..

If I'm going home..

I wish you were there waiting for me..

It's your love that makes it so real..

Los Ojos..

Sometimes..

I wish I could give you more..

More than just a smile that pretends not to understand..

When all you have ever wanted is just

a reassurance of your love coming back from these talking eyes..

I'm sorry..

Sorry for keeping my eyes away from yours..

I want to hide my true feelings that bring butterflies into my stomach..

My eyes cannot tell lies..

Looking straight into your eyes might just expose my biggest secret right in front of you..

Please do not get me wrong if I tried to run away from you..

You know I do not mean to push you away..

I am just holding myself back..

I..

AM.. 

JUST.. 

TOO AFRAID.. 

TO BELIEVE IN LOVE AGAIN..

Feelings, Perceptions and Experiences..

Regardless of how close two individuals are..
There are a lot of things we couldn't share..

Feelings could be very personal..
Given the same situation..
Different individuals would have different feelings towards the same thing..
It is almost impossible for any individual to feel the exact same way like the other as feelings come from perceptions..
And perceptions have to come from past experiences..
These experiences that we own are the ones that differ us from one another..
Making every each of us a special individual by our own..

How are your feelings like today??

A Brand New Year..

01.01.2011..

A date that marks a new page of my life..

Finished half of my university life in Kuala Lumpur..

I am coming back for the 4th semester..

Wanting to achieve more..

2010 was a fruitful year in my personal development..

I have learnt much more than what I have expected to gain..

Nothing beats the feeling of seeing oneself turning into a better person..

After 20 years of being clueless..

I am glad to say that finally now I have an idea on what I want in my life..

2011 will be a brand new year..

That awaits to be planted with blossoming flower..

Tomorrow..

Decided to make this my signature song..

A song that I would sing to myself all the time..

No matter what happens hope shall not die..

A song that I would sing for you ..

When hope doesn't come knocking your door..

*TOMORROW - Annie*

The sun'll come out 

Tomorrow

Bet your bottom dollar 

That tomorrow 

There'll be sun! 

Just thinkin' about

Tomorrow 

Clears away the cobwebs,

And the sorrow 

'Til there's none! 

When I'm stuck with a day 

That's gray, 

And lonely, 

I just stick out my chin 

And Grin, 

And Say, 

Oh! 

The sun'll come out

Tomorrow 

So ya gotta hang on 

'Til tomorrow 

Come what may 

Tomorrow! Tomorrow!

I love ya Tomorrow! 

You're always

A day

Away! 

I Am Not Earth..

I AM NOT EARTH..
At least not the one you should look down at..
Or even the one you should step over on..

You can be the moon or stars..
As high as you can reach..
As bright as you can wish..
But please..
PLEASE DO NOT JUDGE ME..
From your own perspective..
Cause we are not under the same blue sky..
With mine has rainbow and sunshine..

You know I will touch the sky..

Through sweat and time..

With a pace of mine..

A Reminder from Me to Myself..

I shall.........I shall........

NO!! I must!! I must!!

Always remember what I wish to realize in life..

Then Run for it!! Run for it!!

Do not get tempted by the fancies that would blind the eyes and mind..

Or tricked into the candy traps that have been set by the evil witches of

HALLUCINATION..

They will

NOT BRING ME ANYWHERE..

Leave all of them behind to survive..

Live with Languages..

"YOU LIVE A NEW LIFE FOR EVERY NEW LANGUAGE YOU 
  SPEAK..
  IF YOU KNOW ONLY ONE LANGUAGE..
  YOU LIVE ONLY ONCE.."

A saying which I cannot agree more..
Like me, I was in Chinese education for my whole life until three years ago..
With only an hour a day of limited exposure back then..
English was never my playground..
You shall not be surprised that time if I couldn't even form a proper sentence without struggling for words and grammar..

But somehow somewhere fate found me..
I picked up my English during these three years..
Now I have been living with it since then..
It gave me a chance to live as a different person..
And opened up a whole new world for me when I slowly mastering it..

I came to understand that when a new language is learnt..
The language itself is not alone..
It comes along with its culture and history..
Followed by its native speakers' wisdom, behaviour and attitude towards life that have been accumulated over the years..
Without I realizing it, I adapted these qualities into my personality..
which made me fitted to be like everyone else in the community..
Enjoying things that English speakers would enjoy
which I probably would not learn to appreciate if it were not because of the language..

In fact, being able to switch freely between both languages..

I am extremely grateful and lucky to have witnessed 

the beauty of languages that lies in between thousands years of human civilization..

Telling their hidden stories through ancient symbols..

Lost..

I think..
I AM ACTUALLY PART OF YOU..
Especially when it comes to music..
Those songs that I keep closed to my heart today..
I picked them up all from you..
Slowly I give up telling others about our story..
I do not want the world to see me..
Cause I do not think that they understand..



I lost myself somewhere long ago when I fell in love with you..
BUT I HAVE NO REGRETS FOR BEING SO..

If I Were To Be Someone Else..

I always have this illusion that

I were elsewhere playing someone else's character..

There are times which I wish to be an artist

drawing on a Gondola in Venice..

There are times which I see myself

being a hero serving next to one of the Great Emperors in Chinese Dynasty..

Well I even wish to be the Queen dancing for Ramses II..

Or a dreams seeker wandering in the center of New York City..

I fantasize to be someone else other than just me over here..

Is it a sign showing that I am not satisfied with my own life??

Here it goes again..

Vicinity changing in front of my eyes..

I am now a pirate sailing across the seven oceans..

Searching for the legendary treasure trove..

The ship of imagination brought me across the world..

I would love to be extraordinary..

Yet if I were to be someone else..

Do I have the courage to go on my own adventure??

Those songs..

Those songs have come back..
Even before I realized it..
They have penetrated into my heart..
Poisoned my mind..
I couldn't resist their call..
I couldn't even move but being carried away..

Music is my drug..
I get stoned in those soul-touching songs..
High we go beyond the stars..
Far away from reality and up to their world..
A place where I find my lost memories of the past..
Touch my indescribable feeling of the present..
And see my underlaying images of the future..

Some songs are emotions..
They tell my story through notes..
Walked me through my ups and downs..

Over the years I thought they have left me..
Left me with some new songs in my new life..
And today they came back..
Just for me to realize that I'm still the same old me..
When I first met them..

Love At First Sight..

Do you believe love at first sight??

Just like some songs..
Once listened..
Fall in love forever..

Deep in my own imaginative world..
Far across the rough sea of emotion..
There's a place where all the fantasies come true..
Made up by thousands and millions of beautiful stories..
Which I call dreams..

I long for a LOVE like this..
A love that is so intense it could shatter the earth..
A love that is so beautiful it blossoms colourful flowers during winter..
A love that is enough for us to hold each others' hands until the end of time..
Swear to the sky that our love will last until the dying day..

COME WHAT MAY..

I am still an AIESECer lah~~

AIESEC

A word that may mean nothing to you..

But if you are following me..

It means a lot to us..

It is a name that connects the world..

A platform for us to grow to a better person..

An experience that does wonders in our life..

I am glad to be part of the world's largest youth-run organisation..

I am an AIESECer lah~~
We are AIESECers lah~~

AND

We are so proud to be one..

We started our AIESEC journey one year ago..

From inactive to active..

And now we are loving it..

Today, we call ourselves AIESECaholics..

Every year..

 the organisation creates impacts

in thousands of youth all around the world.. 

Every day..

Somewhere on the earth..

Someone is living a life-changing experience..

Stumbling in the organisation..

And meeting people from all over the world..

It inspires me every single day..

After one year..

I would love to tell the world..

YES!!

I am still an AIESECer lah~~

We are still AIESECers lah~~

Thank you for giving me a chance..

For me, for us to develop..

To who I am, we are today..

Have You Ever Seen The Rain..

I love rainy days..
Despite of the inconvenience caused..
It is a gift granted to the land of beings..

The holy water washes away the aggressiveness on everyone's face..
People slow down their pace..
We can hear nothing but only the pitter patter of raindrops..
Suddenly..
The world becomes so quiet and peaceful..
Even crimes hide in the house..

Rain water bleaches the background into icy grey..
Gloomy and lifeless..
Once in a while the world becomes our drawing paper..
Everyone is an artist..
We paint the street with various colour of umbrellas..
Blue, Yellow, Pink, Red, Purple, Green, Orange..

People cuddle to keep each other warmed..
And a glass of hot chocolate perfects the day..
Rainy days are my favourite days..

Have you ever seen the rain??

The World is Safe to Explore..

Once again..
The world proves to me that it is a safe place for me to explore..

10.15AM
Started a day with the worst thing that could have happened
especially when there were some serious work needed to be done..
I overslept!!
2 hours behind my schedule..
I stumbled over the mess in my room
to get myself and everything else ready..
Having less fear than my first attempt on trying out new route..
I was actually a little bit thrilled
by the adventurous feeling of performing a journey in uncertainties..
Put on my sport shoes and my backpack..
I reassured myself with a single belief..
"The world is a safe place for me to explore"..

11.00AM
The sky was overcast..
My heart was in fits and starts..
As if there were clouds skimming over it..
Causing it to be in a sudden bright and a sudden dark the next second..
This time I had nobody to guide me..
But simply relied on a direction
provided by a telecommuter from Rapid KL..
I was taking risk..

11.50AM
Central Market's bus station was loaded with a lot of buses..
I had to search one by one until I got B115 in sight..
While boarding the bus..
I was greeted by an Indian bus driver with a polite smile..
We began quite a pleasant conversation
as I tried to get a reaffirmation from him
to make sure that I didn't eventually get on the wrong bus..
From food to hometown we were talking about throughout the bus ride..
After all it was just two of us
and another guy who was rushing for prayers in the whole bus..
Building up a friendly relationship with the bus driver..
I am pretty sure that he will drop me right at the place I needed to be..

12.25PM
Like what I have expected..
I got down of the bus right in front of the Inland Revenue building..
Then only I realized I was too late!!
It's prayer break!!
With little hope that the department might still be operating..
I knew I was wrong when I came face to face with
the staff who were all standing in front of me once the lift door opened..
Showing them an embarrassing smile
I scolded myself for screwing up the day..
Another two and a half hours of waiting
could probably drain me upside down..
May be my face looked pity enough that moment..
Out of the blue..
A Chinese lady volunteered herself to finish my application before lunch..
Mission accomplished again!!

12.40PM
Knowing that it's almost impossible to catch a bus during prayer's hours..
I went hunting for food just to kill the time..
There's this huge food corner right in front of Inland Revenue..
Hustle and bustle at lunch hour..
Suddenly I felt belittled in such a big crowd..
I am just another Nobody for the world..

1.30PM
My stomach was filled with food..
However it's still too long for the next bus to reach..
Having no choice..
I could only hope that by miracle a bus would turn up..
Then there were this two Malay girls..
Out of boredom I started chatting with them
and came to realize that we had the same destination..
Agreed to take a cab and split the fare..
we were soon on a taxi to Central Market..
Consider myself lucky enough for getting
2 other people to share the fare with me..
Something better happened..
They refused to take my share even though I insisted to pay..
I couldn't believe my luck..
I just got a free ride out of nowhere..

2.00PM
With a heart full of appreciation to the creator
for sending angels around me when I only have myself to rely on..
For the second time I concluded that
the world is safe for me to explore..
And this time I am more convinced..

Post Script:
A million of "Thank You" to those strangers I met..
Even though we do not know each other
but your existence at that particular moment had enriched my life..

Peace and fulfilment of humankind's potential..=)

Left and Right..

Left                                                       Right

Left                                             Right

Left                                   Right

Eyeballs' rolling

Clock's ticking

Head's moving

MY HEART IS PONDERING

Dance!!

Do you hear the music??Do you hear the sound??
Do you have the basic??To dance me around??

I love dancing..
That's most probably the reason I love party too..
Being an Asian..
We often tightened down by a lot of social norms..
That restrain us from doing anything we really like..
We do not express ourselves openly in front of others..
Therefore dancing in public is never our culture..
It's too dangerous to expose who we are..
As body language would be the most direct way to project one's true-self..
We are too afraid to let the world come into our heart..

Today..YES today!!
It's time for us to throw away all the worries..
Free yourself and tell the stories..
Open your heart to the world..
Dance like a diva as if there were nobody watching..
Again..

Do you hear the music??Do you hear the sound??
Do you have the basic??To dance me around??